Tuesday, December 2, 2008

January 5th, 2008

Dear Friend

Lately I’ve been reading this book called The Perks of Being a Wallflower. I finished it a while ago and I would like to share my thoughts and opinions about it with you. It’s a pretty good book and I enjoyed it very much. I thought that the book was very genuine, because I could relate to the main character. The main character in the book is Charlie; he is a sixteen year old boy who goes through a tough experience called high school. Charlie has an older brother and a sister. He lives with his parents. Throughout the book, Charlie meets new friends and falls in love with a girl named Sam. Charlie likes to read books. Every book he reads is his favorite book. I also like to read books, so I enjoyed sections in the book when Charlie talked about the books he has read. He also gets good grades in school. I can relate to Charlie in a way of starting something new and unexpected. Freshman year of high school was very scary for me. I did not know anyone and it was hard for me to make friends because of my introvert personality. To tell you the truth, I am scared of people. People intimidate me, because I think that everyone is better than me, which they probably are. Not everything in Charlie’s life is filled with happiness. Everyone can relate to that, because no one in the world lives a perfect and happy life. Charlie goes through some hard times after the death of his Aunt Helen, which turn out to be ironic at the end. He starts to experiment with drugs and he begins to drink. Charlie learns about sex at young age. He learns new and exciting things about love and friendships. Friends are very important to Charlie. His two best friends are Patrick and Sam. Charlie has other friends, but not as important. Charlie went through a lot when he was young. He was really disturbed when his friend Michael killed himself and when his Aunt Helen died. Charlie ends up finishing his first year of high school and moving on with his life. I do not want to reveal the ending to you, because I recommend that you read this book on your own.

On page 39 I really liked how Charlie explained the moment when he was feeling infinite. Charlie, Sam and Patrick were riding through a tunnel while listening to the song called “Landslide.” They were downtown and it was nighttime. They were surrounded by each other, music and nightlights. That was when Charlie felt infinite. I like this section, because it shows that people pay attention. Charlie and his friends pay attention to beautiful things around them like music and night lights. I appreciate people who pay attention to little things. I think it’s endearing. In the book, Charlie has a teacher who helps him out and guides him. I really enjoyed that about the book. On page 181 I liked the part when Bill, Charlie’s teacher, told Charlie how he was special. This section in the book reminded me about the time a teacher told me that I was special. Just like Charlie, I also had a teacher in high school that was like a mentor to me. I will not reveal the real name of that teacher, because I would like to respect her privacy. I will, however, make up a name for reference. I will call her Mrs. Smith. Whenever I had a problem or needed advice, I always went to see Mrs. Smith and she never let me down. I will be forever grateful to her, not only because she helped me out and not because she understood me, but because she took the time to listen to me when no one else cared. Before I go on writing I would like to thank you. Thank you for taking the time to read my letters and thank you for not judging.

On page 182 I really liked the part when Charlie said that “I think that everyone is special in their own way.” First off, I’d like to say that I agree with Charlie. All people are unique. What Charlie said made me feel good. It made me realize that I should just be myself and stop pretending to be someone that I am not. This sentence made me think; think about how there is only one Rachel Brian (me) and how I am different, but in a good way. It made me think about how everyone is different and how little things can shape who we are, who we pretend to be or who we want to be. The one thing that I will always remember from this section is that each individual person is one of a kind. I guess that people can be associated with stars. There are billions of stars in the sky and each star has a distinct shape or form that distinguishes it from the rest. Same thing can be said about people. I also like the part when Charlie explains how beautiful Sam’s photograph is on page 48. He uses words like “prettiest eyes,” “you cry,” “person holds you,” etc. The way Charlie talks about Sam is very touching and emotional and I like that. These sentences show a different side of Charlie, a side that makes him sensitive and insightful. I respect that in a guy. I believe that if a guy can express his true emotions, then he is an honest and trustworthy guy. I would trust that guy with any secret and I would be comfortable around him. I used to think that guys just think about sports, food and beautiful women. However, the way Charlie talks about Sam made me realize that there are guys in the world that are sensitive and understanding. Charlie sees good in people and I admire that quality.

I’d like to tell you what I think about the ending. I will try to be as vague about the ending as possible, because I do not want to give away the mystery and the excitement. I did not like the ending. It was definitely unexpected. I would never have guessed that the book would end this way. The way Charlie talked about his Aunt Helen was sweet and considerate. Charlie’s words made his Aunt Helen sound lovable and caring. I would never have expected Aunt Helen to be the cause of Charlie’s problems. I would never have anticipated that Aunt Helen would do such a terrible thing. The ending definitely relates to the story and to the source of Charlie’s sufferings. The ending makes sense in a way that explains why Charlie is so disturbed throughout the book. The ending definitely came as a shock to me. I thought that Charlie had some sort of accident that made him block out some traumatic experiences. To be honest, I thought that Charlie had post traumatic stress disorder, but I could not figure out why. Overall, Charlie is a great character and The Perks of Being of Wallflower is a good book. I hope that you get a chance to read it. This is my last letter and these are my final words. I don’t know why I dropped all this on you, but I am glad that I shared my feeling with someone. I hope that I did not offend or disrespect you in any way in my letters. Again, I want to thank you for reading, listening and understanding.

Love always, Rachel

Tuesday, November 11, 2008

December 27th, 2008

Dear Friend

This week is going terrible and slow. I have so much work to do and so many tests to study for. I don’t have time for friends or family or even for myself. I haven’t slept in so long that I forgot what a pillow looks like. But that’s okay, because at tough times, time like this, I think of wonderful experiences I had, times when I was happy and excited. When I am down or sad or just bored I always think of Christmas morning and my family. I don’t really know why I immediately think of Christmas with my family, but I guess that is the only time our family is together. I just love being with my mom and dad and even my brother. It feels like I belong, like I am not alone in the world. I love it when we all sit by the fire and watch a movie together. I even love when my brother keeps says that watching movies that make people cry is girly, but I know that he loves it. And later we all go outside and throw snowballs at each other. My dad always wins that game, because he is the strongest. Then we all go inside and open the presents. I don’t really care about the presents I get, I am just excited to see the look on people’s faces when I give them my presents. So that’s my memory of the “good times.” It may be lame, but it gets me through some tough times.

Before I forget, I wanted to tell a little bit about my brother. Well, first off, he is my brother, so we always fight a lot. Sometimes we have serious fights and sometimes we just play around. We never hurt one another on purpose, physically or emotionally, or at least we never mean to. My brother and I were never really close, because he is older and always thinks of me as an annoying baby sister. But there was this one time when I got in a car accident and he was there for me, not just because he is my brother so he had to be, but because he really cared. I had to stay in the hospital overnight and he was there with me all the time. It was a horrible experience for me, but he was there to cheer me up and make me feel better. I guess that day was really special to me, because that’s when we became really good friends. After that accident my brother told me that if I ever had any problems that I could talk to him. He really is a good guy.

While I am on the subject of my brother, I’d like to tell you about the time when he introduced me to video games. I never knew that video games could be so much fun, as well as addictive and time consuming. I never played video games; I guess I thought that only boys played video games, because they had nothing better to do. But I have to tell you video games are a lot of fun. These games take up so much of my time that they help me escape my problems. They also help me forget things I don’t want to think about. I like playing games like Superman, Spiderman and Batman, games that have heroes, because I enjoy saving people. I also like playing these games because it’s everyone’s fantasy to have superpowers and I cannot save people in real life. Sometimes it’s nice to live in a fantasy world. This was a very helpful experience. I got to fly and be someone else, I even saved the world, from alien invasion, but I still saved the world. It was fun doing something I have never done before, especially something so entertaining. Well, I think I have bored you enough for one day. Hope you have a good weekend.

Love always, Rachel

Monday, November 3, 2008

December 24th, 2008

Dear Friend

The holiday season is upon us and I would like to give you a gift. It’s nothing special, just a mix tape that I made for you kind of as a “thank you!” This tape contains all of my favorite songs. Most of them are slow and relaxing. The one song that I would like to point out is song number 1 and number 11. The name of the song is “My All.” I decided to put in on there twice, because it is very important to me. I listen to that song when I am down, mad, sad, angry or just happy. It’s really a song for any and every mood. I think it’s the best song ever, because it’s beautiful. What I mean by beautiful is that this song has tranquil tone and soothing flow as well as lovely lyrics. It’s hard to find a song with all of those qualities.

When you listen to this tape, I hope that you can forget about everything negative in life and just think about beauty and love. I hope that this tape will remind you of the importance of love. I hope it’s the kind of tape that will make you realize how lucky you are if you have someone who loves you. Because there are some people who are not very lucky and have no one.

Title: “The Only One”

Song Title Composer
“My All” Mariah Carry
“I Will Always Love You” Whitney Houston
“Lust” Tori Amos
“My Love’s Gone” Dido
“Torn” Natalie Imbruglia
“Save Me” Remy Zero
“Superman: It’s Not Easy” Five for Fighting
“I’ll Be There for You” The Rembrandts
“30 Minutes” Tatu
“Every time” Britney Spears
“My All” Mariah Carry

Another thing I wanted to mention was my trip to New York with my family. We went to visit our grandparents in New York for Christmas. Since we did not have much money left for the plane tickets our dad decided to drive to New York. It was a boring and a very long trip, but for some reason I was very excited. I couldn’t wait to see my grandmother. I love my grandma very much. She is the only one who really understands me. My grandma always has answers for any problem and any question. She can even figure out solutions to my problems before I even have those problems. My grandpa is really good at avoiding confrontations and giving money.

My dad on the other hand, doesn’t need to have a conversation, he can just give a look and we all know what to do. My mom is very patient; it’s very hard to make her mad. However, when she is mad, fireworks are going up in heaven. My brother is very mellow; he doesn’t care much about anything. All he does is just sit quietly and listen to his music. When we got to New York we went straight to grandmas. Our family had a nice holiday weekend together and we got back home on Monday. That was pretty much my winter break. Well, I hope you enjoy my present.

Love always, Rachel

Friday, October 24, 2008

December 20th, 2008

Dear Friend

Have I ever told you how beautiful nature is? It would be impossible to describe, but I’ll try. When I look at the trees and flowers outside my window I see happiness and joy. When I walk home from school and leaves are falling all around me I feel like I can fly. Nature is quiet and serene; it’s peaceful, but full of dreams and hopes. When I look at the mountains and smell the fresh air I just want to freeze that moment of tranquility. It’s very lovely and delightful. Nature is not only peaceful, but it’s also nice to look at. I feel very safe looking at something so divine. When I feel sad I usually go outside, take a long walk and look at the flowers and trees all around me. Nature is heavenly. It cannot hurt, it’s there for everyone.

Talking about nature reminds me that I have never told you about my dreams and hopes and my “glory days.” Actually, I have not lived my “glory days” yet and I don’t know if I ever will. Right now I am just living in the moment and not thinking about the “glory days” to come. But I do know for sure that I have not lived my glory days. I haven’t really done anything spontaneous, I haven’t traveled anywhere, and I don’t play sports or any musical instruments. I don’t have many hobbies and there are not many things that I can do well or I am good at. There is really nothing special about me, there is nothing glorious in my life. But I hope that someday I will do something worthy enough to call that my “glory days”. When I get older I hope to achieve something, not something amazing and not something remarkable, but just something. Something that will not only make me feel proud, but something that can benefit many people. I imagine it would be amazing and wonderful to feel like I have accomplished something in my life. To tell you the truth I am really looking forward to my future “glory days”.

Holiday season is upon us, which means more time to spend with family. I like being with my family, but we don’t spend much time with each other, except on holidays. That is one of the reasons I love holidays, because I love spending time with my family. My bother always says that he hates spending time with our family, but I know he doesn’t mean it. I can’t believe that every time our family goes shopping for holiday food and presents they always say that they don’t want to go, like they have something better to do. But at the end of the day we all end up having fun. When we all leave to shop for holiday accessories, we usually take my dad’s car, because it’s bigger. And every time our mom takes these little pieces of mint candy and hands them to everyone while we ride to the store. We arrive at the store together, but once we enter the store and all go our separate ways. Dad goes straight to the home appliances and tools department, mom heads off to the men’s and women’s clothes department, and my brother walks to the games and entertainment department. And I don’t go anywhere, because I don’t have a department. I just like to observe, I like to look around the store and see happy people with their families and then look at my family. When everyone is done shopping we all take a ride to the park and hang out there for a couple of hours. Our mom buys everyone hot cocoa and we sit on the benches under trees filled with snow. I love holidays and being with my family. I hope your family has some traditions as well. Happy Holidays!

Love always, Rachel

Tuesday, September 30, 2008

December 2nd, 2008

Dear Friend
Just up until today I thought that our family was the only family that was weird and bizarre. I never realized how normal our family really is. It’s great to find out things, you know, things that are right there in front of you, but you never pay attention to them. It’s as almost as if those things are not important at the moment, but then you spend some time thinking about them and at the end of the day it’s all you care about. Or, maybe that just happens to me. Anyway, our family got invited to this dinner party with the Craig’s. Richard Craig is my dad’s business partner; he’s got a huge house, a wife and three kids, twin guys and one girl. His kids are about my age. When we arrived at their house everything was great until we all sat down to dinner. Everything up to that point was nice, his wife was polite and kids were quiet, but then we started eating. It was so embarrassing when Mrs. Craig started to yell at her husband, because he set the table wrong. And it got really uncomfortable when the twins began to fight, because one of them drank the last of the orange juice and the girl just kept talking loud about how she hates her family. That was a fun night. It felt like we were watching our family on TV. That was the time when I realized our family was ordinary. Before, I thought of our family as an awkward group of people who always fought and got in each other’s way. But I guess that’s common for families to fight and annoy each other. However, even though our family fights, we all know that we love each other. To tell you the truth, when I am surrounded by my family, people that I love and care about most in the world, I can’t help it, but to feel infinite. There is no greater feeling than the love of a family. Just knowing that there are people who truly love you, who won’t judge, and who will always be there is the definition of “infinite” in my dictionary. Family is not just there for you, they are there with you, though happiness, sadness, laughter and grief. Of course, a family, any family is not without problems, but all the good stuff and all the annoying stuff is what keeps family together. Boyfriends, girlfriends, all come and go, but family is infinite.

I feel like I never told you about my friends, except there is nothing much to tell. To be honest, I don’t have that many friends. That’s funny, I never realized that before. I guess it’s not that funny once you think about it. I might not have lots of friends, but I do have a few very close and special friends, friends that I can trust with my life. And when I say a few, I mean one. I bet you are thinking that’s I am pathetic. Yeah, well, what else is new in my life?! Anyway, let me tell you about the friends, oops, I mean a friend I do have. There is this girl named Helen. She and I have been best friends since I can remember. We do everything together. We go to school together, we watch TV together, we shop together, it’s like we are sisters. Helen is a great person and a wonderful friend. She is very intelligent and polite. Helen wants to be a kindergarten teacher when she grows up, because she loves people, especially kids. So, at this point, I don’t really care that I have no friends, I am just glad I have a great buddy I can tell anything to. Well I guess I bored you enough for one day.
Love always, Rachel

Tuesday, September 16, 2008

September 20th, 2008

Date: September 20th, 2008
Dear Friend
I am writing to you because it’s just one of those times when it’s raining outside and all you want to do is stay home, watch TV and drink hot cocoa and write. It’s nice when people stay home with their families, play Pictionary and watch movies by the fire while rain is pouring out it’s feelings outside. I just need to know that there are families out there that don’t do those wonderful things. I just don’t want my family to be the only family that doesn’t laugh and cuddle by the fire on rainy days. I mean, I’d love for my family to gather together for a friendly game of scrabble, drink cocoa, talk and laugh. But my dad is too busy and my mom is always too tired and my brother claims he is just “too old” to be doing those things. I think you of all people would understand that because no family is perfect and you must have experienced at least some of those things in your life. Because most dads are too busy, well, because they are dads. And most moms are always tired from working and cooking and taking care of kids. And as for the brothers, well they all think they are too tough to show emotion. But I believe that family is way too important to discard just because your friends might think it too effeminate. So, this is my life. It may be a boring life, but it’s my life. And I want you to know family is very important to me. Just knowing that there is someone that cares more about you well being than their own is pretty amazing. I hope you understand. Because the reason I wrote this letter is because it’s been a really long time since my family did anything together. I mean we don’t even sit down for dinner at the same time. Anyway I think I have bored you enough for one day.
Love always, Rachel